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As We Were

by Amalgam Effect

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1.
Identify 08:02
"Identify" Who are you and what am I? Something to identify! Pacified with empty sigh Nothing to identify! Out of time without a chance Face the bitter circumstance Rest inside a gilded trap Can I ever bridge the gap? Can’t remember where I stand Games I play at your command Will I race towards the flame? If I burn what will remain? Who are you and what am I? Nothing to identify Move against the shifting sky Something to identify! Hide behind a thin disguise Show no fear behind my eyes Am I fit to find my peace? Can I ever find release? Could you help me find my way In this broken day-to-day? What could cure me of my doubt? I must find the breath to shout Justify my being Find where I’m to stand Rectify my knowing Do all that I can Slipping deep into the haze Caught inside an endless maze Can there be a better road Overwhelmed by what is owed Must fulfill the urge to roam Have I strayed too far from home? What could cure me of my doubt? I must find the breath to shout Justify my being Find where I’m to stand Rectify my knowing Do all that I can Who are you and what am I? Something to identify! Pacified with empty sigh Nothing to identify! Who are you and what am I? Nothing to identify Move against the shifting sky Something to identify! Justify my being Find where I’m to stand Rectify my knowing Do all that I can
2.
"Against the Grain" I feel it slipping I’m gripping Still dipping Falling from nothing Need something Start breaking Too much to shoulder Grows older Much colder Find subjugation Negation I’ll break the rules! Hollow tears and homebred fears Will cloud the skies and your surmise Caught in trends—syntactic bends Anesthetize with open eyes Break the mold, upend the fold, And opiate your sordid fate Strike the source—meet cause with force! Alleviate a toxic hate Rules are decaying They’re fraying Start praying I’m losing focus My locus Provoke us Bleeding my heart dry A sad sigh A dead cry No more semantics Or antics Against the grain! Look around at the world and see The grim material life Keep your head hanging low and you’ll Evade the cut of the knife Destitute and corrupt is still The quiet state of affairs Sins we’ll not suffer quietly With blank expressionless stares Innocence is subservience Subsist for all you exist Jaded by the inequities All which we now must resist Through the pain and against the grain Oppose that which you ignore Burn the lies and erase the guise No cause could ask you for more
3.
Out of Time 06:06
"Out of Time" Sit in darkness, lost in thought Awful trap in which you’re caught Feeling helpless, left behind Mind the gap twixt heart and mind Forward motion of your peers Can’t begin to ease your fears Got the notion, spirit lost Worn too thin to pay the cost Sitting lonely as I think Into isolation sink Worldly chain is missing links Life is over in a blink Not at work, not having fun Never seeing anyone Feel my race is almost run Out of time but never done Must keep moving, don’t you stop Have to climb to reach the top Never proving anything Out of time—quit lingering Motivation must create Time to go, you’re running late Realization—purpose found Try to show you’re gaining ground Sitting lonely as I think Into isolation sink Worldly chain is missing links Life is over in a blink Not at work, not having fun Never seeing anyone Feel my race is almost run Out of time but never done
4.
"Generation Bridge" There’s a bridge within our consciousness That so few know about Connects understanding Patience and wisdom Destroying any doubt Confusion Competition Condemnation Become Compassion Collaboration A companion The present is a distant memory The ravine of understanding is In shrouds of fog obscured Obstruction of vision Clouds intuition Delusion is assured Illusion Isolation Indignation Find inspiration Illumination And inclusion The present is a distant memory The more we connect The less we respect Words fall on deaf ears My love disappears Our speech turns to noise We act without poise Our obstinate kin Their judgment a sin I try to relate And alter my fate My efforts in vain I’m driven insane There’s a bridge within our consciousness Or at the bottom of a glass Passed down by the father Giving me comfort When I know that love can’t last Damnation Degradation Desolation And devastation Debilitation Decimation The present is a distant memory
5.
"The Smoking Remains" Light a fag and take a drag Suffocate in plastic bag Take a sip and make a quip Watch your tongue or you may trip! Guard each word, your vision blurred Cracks in the façade assured Whining pup just bottle up Don’t you overfill her cup! A genuine article too hard to find Too many people false and unkind All that you feel now are dull aches and pains All that is left are the smoking remains All alone the fear is grown Nothing but the hatred shown Too hurt to lie but don’t you cry Still those feelings just won’t die Hold her near, can’t let her hear How much you still hold her dear Far too weak for what you seek Now your future’s looking bleak A genuine article too hard to find Too many people false and unkind All that you feel now are dull aches and pains All that is left are the smoking remains Now you go, your head hung low Cold and bitter seeds you sow What you reap you’ll have to keep ‘Till into your grave you creep Another way, another day Living out your passion play Can’t begin to ease your sin Play a game you cannot win A genuine article too hard to find Too many people false and unkind All that you feel now are dull aches and pains All that is left are the smoking remains
6.
"To Be Another" Nothing at all I can’t recall Falling ever faster I thought I knew Too far from true Roles I fail to master Torrents of fear They’re flowing near Solipsistic nightmare Breaking the mold I’m growing cold Thoughts are going nowhere Creeping sadness Lurid madness Heart a vile trickster Blood is crusting Mind is rusting Eyes now set upon her Failing to care So unaware Find my way within her Time is deformed Bridges reborn Reignite the ember Words are the wall Meant not to fall Watch it crack and falter Late in the night Keep up the fight Vassals at the alter Love her deeply Fumble meekly Left upon the levee Longing flooding Friendship budding Pressures far too heavy Her cellophane tales and cyanide characters Poisoning My withering lines and tritely scribed foolery Crumbling Walls are coming down As one our hearts are bound At a loss for words
7.
"Lonesome Night" I am the moth and you my candle The lonely darkness I can’t handle And so I race towards the flame To win your heart I’ll play the game A little time and then we’ll see If you and I were meant to be I’d find in you a friend and lover With whom my soul might take some cover I need a hint to solve your riddle Just play the tune I’ll be your fiddle And through the cold and lonesome night We could give each other light I long to feel your warm embrace And see the smile on your face I know not if I’m fox or hound As we chase each other round This song a symbol of my love An olive branch borne by a dove And for my mind to know some peace My great affection must release I am the moth and you my candle The lonely darkness I can’t handle And so I race towards the flame To win your heart I’ll play the game
8.
"Turning Cards" Clinging strands of sanity Moments so surreal Fractious bleeding fantasy Intimate and real Rule a simple reckoning Made to save the wall Pulse too loud and quickening Can’t object at all Set the oil ablaze Burn me to embers It’s a dangerous game I’ll play forever Fly ahead and away Break past the never More or less than unity Bound and pulled at ends Touch that warms the breath in me Nothing could offend Bluffs I flaunt are weakening In her steely eyes Rose’s thorns unwavering No thought to disguise Set the oil ablaze Burn me to embers It’s a dangerous game I’ll play forever Fly ahead and away Break past the never
9.
Choose 03:20
"Choose" My sense of satisfaction That your hurtful, foolish actions Have finally caught up with you May outweigh my disappointment Because my further disenchantment Has let all my resentment through Your friends you take for granted And your lovers you abuse Your promises recanted All critiques you will refuse You want to play the martyr, But you just can’t stand to lose Well, I’d hoped you could be smarter Now you’ll have to choose! It’s your turn on the stand So take the oath and raise your hand Do you love me? Now, you say you do But if that’s so why is it That I am left at home to sit While another’s making love to you Your friends you take for granted And your lovers you abuse Your promises recanted All critiques you will refuse You want to play the martyr, But you just can’t stand to lose Well, I’d hoped you could be smarter Now you’ll have to choose! You’re a manipulative tool But you’re running low on fuel You’ll be stranded in the desert one night And with nobody’s blood to suck I hate to say you’re out of luck But I hope you still think it’s alright Yes, I hope you still think it’s alright Because you’ll have to choose tonight
10.
"Dangerous Games" I’ve found the kindest way to say I’m sick of all your shit But any words I choose to use Won’t make the pieces fit You tell me that you care and dare To break your rule for me For other men you spread in bed What was I meant to see? It’s a dangerous game A hard demand Am I just a pawn to you? You have no shame You play your hand But you haven’t thought it through Don’t take me for a fool, your rule Was only put in place So you don’t feel regret, forget What you don’t want to face I wish that you could hear the fear So plain within your speech But with your legs agape, escape Is not within your reach It’s a dangerous game A hard demand Am I just a pawn to you? You have no shame You play your hand But you haven’t thought it through I tried my best to help you see, with me You could have healed The depth of the mistake you make In time will be revealed One day I think you’ll find your mind Will never be at rest ‘Cause when push came to shove, my love You’d fail your own damn test It’s a dangerous game A hard demand Am I just a pawn to you? You have no shame You play your hand But you haven’t thought it through
11.
"Oil and Water" Poetic, cynical, and grim His heart does nothing on a whim But when she’s standing close to him He longs to feel her touch Her charm and sex appeal her tool To have her fun albeit cruel And though she tries to play it cool She cares a bit too much Self-loathing, narcissistic, Self-indulgent, pessimistic, Selflessness unrealistic Can’t play any tricks Realize we scrutinize Witness to transparent lies Cold behind our smiling eyes Oil and water don’t mix! A cresting wave of pure devotion Has swept us out into the ocean Now of this thing we’ve set in motion I have no control! The mind, the heart it won’t set free For all the things we seem to be Won’t coalesce so easily Our love cannot be whole! Self-loathing, narcissistic, Self-indulgent, pessimistic, Selflessness unrealistic Can’t play any tricks Realize we scrutinize Witness to transparent lies Cold behind our smiling eyes Oil and water don’t mix! Please understand now if you can The pointless race that we both ran We couldn’t ever hope to plan To make each other right! We’ve been given one great chance To know existence at a glance Don’t miss it for some circumstance That may not come to light... Self-loathing, narcissistic, Self-indulgent, pessimistic, Selflessness unrealistic Can’t play any tricks Realize we scrutinize Witness to transparent lies Cold behind our smiling eyes Oil and water don’t mix!
12.
"Do You Remember?" Do you remember? How we used to laugh and sing Tell each other everything We would waste away the days As we let the last notes ring Do you remember? All the games we used to play Lovely stupid things we'd say Our strange and wondrous dreams At the seams began to fray Do you remember? Will you fondly think of me? Did it ever really matter? Do you think that you'll be free, Now that we've let our bond shatter? Do you remember? When you called me late at night And revealed to me your fright Of losing those who loved you But I said it'd be alright Do you remember? How when I could hardly stand I would beg you for a hand But instead you pulled away From the weight of my demand Do you remember? Will you fondly think of me? Did it ever really matter? Do you think that you'll be free, Now that we've let our bond shatter? Do you remember? When you used to be my friend There was no need to pretend Then your love began to fade Put our closeness to an end Do you remember? How we used to laugh and sing Tell each other everything We would waste away the days As we let the last notes ring

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released October 13, 2017

Matt Spivack > Vocals, Flute, Guitar, Keyboards (Tracks 5-9)
Kody Little > Guitar, Vocals, Gypsy (Track 8)
Chris Childress > Bass, Bass Synthesizers (Tracks 1 & 12)
Calvin Merseal > Drums, Keyboards (Tracks 2, 3, 6, & 10)
Special Guest Performances by:
Bill Hussung > Keyboards (Tracks 1, 4, 11, & 12)
Sadie Trigg > Vocals (Tracks 10 & 11)

Recorded at UI Sound Studios in Boulder, CO
Produced by Evan “Doublemint” Reeves & Amalgam Effect
Co-Produced by Max Nordby
Engineered by Evan Reeves, Max Nordby & Jackson Prince
Mixed/Mastered by Chris Scott

Executive Producer: Calvin “This Guy” Merseal
Cover Art: Jasmine Zion
Layout: Calvin Merseal
All Music by Amalgam Effect
Lyrics by Matt Spivack, Calvin Merseal, & Kody Little
℗ © 2017 Amalgam Effect

Special Thanks to,
Greg Steinman, Nicki Childress, Mike Little,
Big Mama Fitzgerald, United Interests Mgmt, What Are Records?
And our other friends and family
Ludwig Van Beethoven, Johann Sebastian Bach, with rests dedicated to John Cage,
Jethro Tull, Iron Maiden, Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin, Porcupine Tree, Opeth,
And all of the other great artists who came before

Outro Guitar Solo in “Do You Remember?” Dedicated to:
Bobbie Faye Zimmerman
(July 30, 1948—August 15, 2017)

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Amalgam Effect is a band in celebration of unification and amalgamation. Their genre is progressive rock at its core, but the emphasis falls on the progress of music and art for the future.

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